One day can blend into the next, and all of a sudden it's been two or three years and it feels like the blink of an eye. Sometimes I worry about how I'll feel decades from now when I think back on my childhood home and the way things were. I wonder if I'll feel nostalgic, sad, happy, or if I'll have regrets about how we spent out days. Right now, I'm still living with my whole family, nobody is sick and nobody has passed away. Every day we wake up together, we cook and eat together, and we spend the slow summer afternoons together. I don't want the summer to end, and most of all I don't want time to go on. The routine and flow of our days right now feels perfect, and I'm worried about a future in which people start to move away and we can't see each other often. I know I'm probably overthinking it, and I'm trying to live in the moment and cherish my daily life, but the reality is that time doesn't stop. Recently I looked through the pictures on my phone from 2 to 3 years ago, and although there aren't any obvious physical differences in how we look, it was a different period of our lives. We had a different rhythm in our days, we were in different grades, and we were happy just as we are now. This comforts me, because change happens so slow we don't really notice it, and that helps me ease into the new way of things more easily. It's also comforting to know that time keeps going for everyone, and while I'm scared about how I'll feel when I'm 97 thinking back on my life right now, there is a 97-year-old out there somewhere who is looking back on his or her life and working through the complicated feelings that can bring. Looking at the photos from a couple years ago brings makes me happy, because it's like reliving those days, and it brings back other memories that would have been lost if I hadn't taken the pictures. I know that 2-3 years from now I'm going to look back on pictures from this summer, and I want to look back on them with joy. Keep in mind that you are creating memories every day, that the pictures you take today are what you'll look back on longingly in the future and use that knowledge to enjoy living the now to the best of your ability. Future you would love to travel back in time and experience one more mundane day from your past, so cherish the fact that you are living in it now.
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